They may be Half-Breeds...

He really did love us. Even if we were just "half-breeds" 🙄🤣

And I adored him....from the moment my mom told us she was pregnant, I was a proud big sister...When he was born...he was my lil baby, and throughout the early years, while I was still at home, I protected him. But then I had to leave and spread those wings so to speak, and I left him alone....I came back too late, and our first big life storm together as siblings put a huge crack in that foundation. But it was with that second storm that it completely crumbled.

I'm not alone...I know that, but everyone is leaving, and I don't understand that. I didn't think it would happen so soon, more time is what I needed....What I need....I wanted more memories, hugs, and the sounds of your voices, not silence.

It's been a while since I've gotten on this blog; life has been spiraling out of control like a roller coaster that came off the track! And I think it crashed into the ground so hard that I lost myself, but slowly I'm finding the pieces, and will put myself back together!

I started this original blog post in 2023! WOW, has time just flown by....and this was the last thing I wrote in 2023 when I started this post....

I'm not alone...I know that, but everyone is leaving, and I don't understand that. I didn't think it would happen so soon, more time is what I needed....What I need....I wanted more memories, hugs, and the sounds of your voices, not silence.

Little did I know how real these words would become in 2025.....

In the summer of 2024, my dad was diagnosed with Lung Cancer. By March 7th, 2025, he was gone...but let me back up a month...February 4th, 2025, while out to dinner with my husband, I received a message from my sister.....who hadn't spoken to me since our brother died, 4 years prior....the message asked if I could call her, it was an emergency...

I dialed the number, and a voice I hadn't heard in 4 years answered, crying, asking me to please come to the ER because my 28-year-old niece had just died, and she is alone with no way to get home, and didn't know who else to contact....I walked back to the table my husband was at and just stood there for a moment to process what I was just told and how to verbalize it to him...Once I got it out of my mouth, I left him sitting at the table to continue the dinner alone, then drove to the ER to pick up my sister and try to understand what happened and how in the world I was going to help her through this horrible loss of her only child. It was the most gut-wrenching situation I've been in since our brother's suicide...

The following month, on March 7th, 2025, my father passed away after his cancer spread to his brain, and he chose to have hospice come in to provide comfort care. It was a different level of grief watching someone you love slowly die and waste away in front of you. Especially someone you looked to as being one of the strongest men ever....

A month later, to the day on April 7th, 2025, my beautiful bonus mom decided to have hospice come in and provide comfort care because her lungs were only functioning at 25% due to the COPD....On April 10th, 2025, she passed away and was reunited with my dad once again...

And here we are, April 16th, 2026, me trying to get back on my healing journey with what feels like duck tape and safety pins holding all of my broken pieces together.....I'll get there eventually....

Thank you all for supporting my journey and for reading these heartfelt, sometimes very raw posts! Writing heals me, and if someone out there can find comfort and healing in any of my posts, that's the real victory here!

Until next time (it won't be as long a break, LOL, I promise)......but remember, I appreciate your existence a great deal!

My Beautiful niece, Katana Lynn ❤️

My beautiful bonus mom, Mickey, and my daddy, Tom❤️